Tuesday, February 26, 2008

'The Man' Tales - I Meet Someone

It wasn’t long after I returned to work that I was back out on Thursday nights with ‘N’. I had left my heart back with Dragosani, and I went out looking for a way to drown my sorrow or find something to take his place. Every Friday morning my mother made comments about the ‘smell’ that came off ‘N’ and me. She claimed we smelled like booze and cheap women. Some Fridays we came in hung over, but we always denied her claim that we were cheap. We had our price. ‘N’ had a definite price when she went out looking on Thursday nights. She wanted a man with money who could give her the life she had missed with the doctor.

One Thursday night turned out different from all the rest. As we sat with our free drinks and yelled at each other over the noise of the music, we saw two men enter and head to the bar. They stood there chatting with their boots resting on the rail while they casually checked out what Ladies Night had brought in for their perusal. One was obviously a real cowboy while the other was a ‘Thursday night only’ cowboy. They don’t call bars ‘meat markets’ for nothing, and sitting at our tables with our free drinks felt like we were cattle waiting to be culled.

‘N’ had noticed the tall cowboy as soon as he entered the bar and she made sure he noticed her. Her beautiful smile and laugh rang out loudly – like a siren’s call – and it drew the two men closer and closer to our table. Soon ‘N’ was up on the dance floor with the cowboy while the wannabe hovered for a minute and then moved off. That was the beginning of a new life for ‘N’.

While ‘N’ was falling in love with her cowboy, I was still trying to carry on a long-distance relationship with Dragosani. I accompanied her every Thursday night so she could be with her new man, while I ended up spending some time up on the dance floor with the wannabe. Dragosani would laugh as I described my attempts at two-stepping or recalled something stupid I had done after my five free drinks. However, as time slipped away and I watched ‘N’ falling in love, I became aware of how lonely I was. D seemed like another lifetime when I thought back to those two weekends. I wanted someone in the here and now instead of years down the road.

The Saturdays with Cid didn’t help either. I yearned to be more than friends with him. But my yearnings left me empty and Cid didn’t notice how I longed for him to see me as more than his friend. I had told him little about my trip east and I told him even less about my Thursday nights.

One night, as Garth Brooks sang “If tomorrow never comes” and I danced with the wannabe, I felt something different in the way he held me. Because he had taken dancing lessons we usually joked about my technique. This time, as we slow danced, he held me tighter and cupped my hand a little more protectively in his. Looking up, I saw a soft look come into his eyes as he bent his head and kissed me. My heart hurt as I thought of Dragosani, but my mind kept reminding me of all the lonely years ahead. The next time he kissed me I blocked all of those thoughts and gave in to my loneliness.

11 comments:

Sweet Irene said...

Oh boy, you'll fall head over heels...

And you are keeping us all in suspense and we'll be falling head over heels to...

dawn said...

Hmmmm...the plot thickens. Life is a confusing dance.

I Beatrice said...

And why is it that I get that sinking feeling again, whenever you meet and succumb to a new man?

I guess we all had such experiences in our youth though? Mine had me falling in love all over Italy, when I was 23. But somehow, looking back, my little love affairs had all the innocence and charm of fairy tale about them. No harm ever came to me from them, anyway - I ardently hope there's not too much left in store for you!

softinthehead said...

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.

laurie said...

hmmmmmmmmmmm

Stinking Billy said...

aims, why am I forever crossing my fingers for you? You are a big girl now and well able to look after yourself, right? Erm, right? Erm, are you sure? Take care.

The Rotten Correspondent said...

Uh oh.

travelling, but not in love said...

lord have mercy. will this ever end?

just tell us what happens!!!

or maybe you could just keep teasing us all (you know I love it really....)

Living the Dream said...

you little tinker you...... hurry up with the next bit will you?

Breezy said...

Aims what they all said! Do you know this is like the very best of plot lines I keep thinking I've got the twists and turns all figured out then in comes another red herring and you have me on the edge of my seat again

aims said...

Irene - I was swept off my feet..

Dawn - indeed it does.

Dearest B - ah Italy! I'm sure you had wonderful affairs - how could you do anything but!

SITH - just don't hold your breath as well...

Laurie - is that like hmmm?

Billy - well - I have proved that I can get into a whole lot of trouble on my own.

RC - and again you made me smile..

TBNIL - do you really want me to cut to the chase? Really?

Hazel - I'm trying!

Breezy - so it's working is it?