Sunday, September 7, 2008

Waiting

I know everyone is waiting for the story to continue - and so am I.

I have started writing it many times only to end up hitting the delete button and walking away.

I've dreamed about it in my sleep - I've thought about it while knitting. But it's not happening. I just can't get the words to come out the way I want them to. Not yet. And he deserves the best that I can do. Nothing less.

So I wait - right along with you. I know it will come and I know you are all going to say don't rush it - write it when you can. I know that. I also know there is a need to write it deep inside me. But I'm afraid - again.

Oh Cid.

31 comments:

Maggie May said...

Definitely don't rush it, Aims.You will know when it is the right time & we can wait.........

Akelamalu said...

Oh m'dear, it must be so difficult. :(

Mya said...

Courage Aims.The words will come when you're ready...

Mya x

Madam Crunchypants said...

I think we're all quite happy to wait if it means the story comes out how you want it to be read.

It's been emotional, so far, just reading. I can't imagine having to relive these memories to get them out onto paper.

*hug*

Cath said...

Just in your own time Aims. It will come. Have courage. There is nothing to fear. You are with friends.

Unknown said...

We'll be here when you're ready! :) XO

DK said...

waiting and watching with you, no hurry ~hugs~ x

Anonymous said...

Hugs Aims, relax those shoulders and breathe deep. It'll come don't fret. Have a piece of paper by you when you knit and write little bits as they come. It'll all make sense eventually. You're re-living it as your describe it and it's a rough place at the moment.

ADDY said...

It must be so painful for you. Take your time. We care enough to wait til you're ready.

Mima said...

I'm so glad to know that I am not the only one who finds some things really difficult to write. It must be awful for you going back over this - I think you are very brave. Let it come in its own time.

david mcmahon said...

You will write it, I know.

Thank you for the wonderful comment and remarks about the novel. I'm so glad you've been enjoying it. Yes, I did see your first comment - I was still in the Yukon at the time, with limited net access.

And I saw your second comment the day I came home, but I'm still playing catch-up, returning friends' visits to my site.

Thank you for your support and I'm delighted that you're enjoying the book.

abb said...

We'll be here when you're able to come back. No rush, Aims, no rush.

www.retiredandcrazy.com said...

Relax aims, it will come like a butterfly resting on your shoulder when the time is right.

Anonymous said...

Take your time. Write when it is right and you are ready. We'll all be here, cheering for you. Margie

Living the Dream said...

When the time is right your heart will know,
The words on the paper will magically flow,
Till then we will wait, no pressure my friend,
Be brave, and our love to give you courage we send.

John-Michael said...

"Be still ... And know" One of my dearest scriptures. For there times ... like this.

Lovingly ...

Biddie said...

It will come out when you are ready. There is no need to explain. We will all wait for you :)

A Mother's Place is in the Wrong said...

Don't be afraid, aims, you have come through so much. It will all work out in good time. M xx

travelling, but not in love said...

We're here and we'll wait. Just take it at your own pace.

But if you could hurry it along a little please...ha ha. Joking sweetie, joking. You take your time and do it right.

x

Unknown said...

Some things are very difficult to write about. I finally just wrote about something that happened 30 years ago.

Unknown said...

The words will come, don't worry. Just don't give up.

Anonymous said...

It can often help to get the words out. But in your own time.

CJ xx

Irene said...

Take your time, Aims, there is plenty of that and patience too on our side. You have given us such a wonderful story up to now, we should be able to wait a bit for the rest. I suppose you want to write it down well and do justice to the subject. As if you have not done that all along. I just hope that the end of the story isn't in sight yet, I would miss coming here and reading about your life.

Unknown said...

Visitng from Black Boxes and only guessing at what pain must be holding you back. The words will come in time.

Moonroot said...

I am quite sure that it will be more than worth waiting for. No rush.

In the meantime, I have something for you over at my blog...

bichonpawz said...

Take your time Aims. We will all be here waiting when you are ready!

The Woman who Can said...

Just know that we are here

T
xxx

John-Michael said...

Life offers up a new week ... and I am drawn here, to my Friend.

Know that you are present in my Soul ... ans welcome in my thoughts.

Olga/Maddie said...

I came to your blogger.com blog by way of DK's, Gina's, and Rachel's blogs.

I'm just starting to read this particular blog but before I get any further, I just wanted to say that I think you are very brave to be writing about such a topic. And I do admire you greatly for the strength and courage that you are showing through writing these words.

I also suffered physical abuse from my own family. So I understand what you are feeilng, what you went through, and how difficult it can be to give voice to something like this.

But I agree with everyone else here. Take your time to tell us your story. Don't rush. Just take at a pace that is comfortable for you. And when you are ready, we will be here to listen.

Lastly, I'm happy to have come across your blog on here. And I look forward to reading more about you.

God bless and take care. Bye, :)!
Olga/Maddie

Mean Mom said...

Hi aims. Just called by to catch up on the past few weeks. You have had to cope with so much during your life. It is sad to read of the amount of heartache you have had to endure, but always a great relief, to me, to know that at least you are writing about the past and not the present. I realise that it is still extremely painful for you, but you have survived and finally found contentment. (I hope I am right! It's not just wishful thinking, on my part, is it??)

You obviously derive a lot of enjoyment from your knitting. I like your bears. Cross stitch is my favourite hobby. I'm not sure whether I have ever mentioned that in my blog. It's good to create things, isn't it? I have done a little knitting, but if I drop a stitch I can't pick it up!!

menopausaloldbag (MOB) said...

Well what can I say that others haven't? Nowt! You need the muse upon you and when it gets here you won't be able to stop. Hugs.