Tuesday, July 15, 2008

'The Man' Tales - What Do You Say?

I didn’t know what to say to that.

My heart broke and I heard it breaking and smashing into my chest wall and crumbling into little pieces as it fell into the pit of my stomach.

The years of our friendship flashed through my brain and I watched it in slow motion – like a mini-film - as it replayed every single experience I had been through with this man.


It slowed down to a frame by frame as it came to the priest who had held my hands and called me a special woman and I watched my feet as they walked towards the bed where this man lay – working at taking each single breath – again and again.

I watched myself lean forward and kiss him – softly – so as not to take away any of the precious air he needed – but still enough to capture the love that lay between us.

I wanted to hold that forever. That love. This man. But I knew – knew that I wouldn’t be able to. I knew that I was losing him. Forever.

All I could say to him was “Oh Cid”.

25 comments:

Living the Dream said...

God bless you Cid and God bless you aims. You haven't lost him he will always be with you in your heart.

Leatherdykeuk said...

Heartbreaking.

John-Michael said...

I must lovingly take issue with you, my Darling. You never lose what you love. All that is loved has an eternal place as a part of who you are. And you carry that part of you with a grace and beauty of character that blesses my life. For this I am grateful.

Lovingly ...

travelling, but not in love said...

Absolutely heartbreaking.

Too awful for words.

Melanie said...

Ouch! This isn't how I was hoping things would turn out.

So wanting that miracle still.

Stinking Billy said...

aims, baby, I was going to ask if we might see an old picture of Cid, but I quickly realised that that would be jumping the gun.

mutleythedog said...

Oh babes. Hugs to you...

Mima said...

Oh aims, it must have just been awful, I can't imagine going through a moment like that, and with someone who has been right at your side for so long. Precious memories to hold onto.

Sandra Ree said...

Thank god he's not alone. Thank god for you.

I'm so sorry for you both.

Crystal Jigsaw said...

The heart is strong; it is also vast.

CJ xx

A Mother's Place is in the Wrong said...

Oh Aims, I feel so much for both of you. Re-living this must be so hard. M xx

merry weather said...

Sometimes there's nothing to say - there's just holding each other.

Terribly sad Aims - I am sorry to read this. It must be so hard to share it.

Biddie said...

Oh..I can't even imagine such a thing. You are so strong Aims.

Daryl said...

If only then was now with all the advances made in treatment of this heinous disease ...

And darling never be hating me for traveling to hot, muggy, mosquito infested places in the dead heat of July .... its business w/pleasure thrown in ... and if you stop hating me I will bring you back a surprise ...

:-Daryl

Daryl said...

I travel very light ... so there will be some room for your to squeeze in .... and you are welcome to come wander with us... we're going to visit Magazine Street's antique shops ... wander some of the Quarter we didnt get to last trip. And take a LOT of pix ... inbetween meetings ... and in the evenings when the temps (hopefully) drop ...

In truth I wish it was more holiday than work AND that you could come along ...

:-Daryl

lisaschaos said...

Oh Cid is right. How lovingly written.

Maggie May said...

This is heartbreaking.

TSannie said...

Oh Aims...

Blessings to you and yours always...

Carolyn said...

Oh Aims.

bichonpawz said...

Oh....this is so heartbreaking to read, aims....I can't even imagine how you must feel reliving all these feelings.

Irene said...

I think he is talking about you, isn't he?

Eileen said...

Such a beautiful man. So glad you two came together. Sounds like the perfect love.

Biddie said...

Oh, Aims.
I'm so sorry.

Daryl said...

I am off very early tomorrow morning (back home on Thursday afternoon) to our favorite city New Orleans ... I promise you lots and lots and lots of pix and stories ... and maybe, very possibly, almost assuredly a surprise!


:-Daryl

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